Swing Batter... Strike
Today has been a very long day of nothing... just waiting. The doctors knocked me out last night and in my drug induced fog I apparently started talking. Tom being the sweet loving man he is tried to calmly wake me well I apparently didn't like that and took half hearted swing at him and missed... then cried. I was clearly not myself.
So after feeling terrible from the meds they gave I have slept as much as possible today to try to prepare for tomorrow. I am waiting for an ultrasound that will determine if a vaginal birth is even an option. I'm still holding on for that slight chance but more than likely because she is breech we will have to do c-section. Tonight at seven I move over to the labor and delivery unit where I will start a magnesium drip. From what I hear it's going to make me feel pretty terrible. I will be on it for 12 hours before we proceed with either type of delivery so no baby before 7 am tomorrow but how things will go after I really don't have much as far as answers.
I am here with my mom and I have sent Tom home to shower and get clothes for the next few days. I feel sorry for him because I'm normally his rock but from what I know I'll be pretty out of it. So he's kinda on his own. :(
A lot of people have asked if they can come tomorrow... the answer is of course yes but I can not guarantee you will get to see me but there is less likely of a chance of getting to see Caroline. I won't get to see her for at least 24 hours and the doctors won't let guests see her before me. So no guarantee either way.
Lots of love and more to follow as soon as we know something.
Love,
Casey, Tom and Caroline
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Ready or NOT here I come!!!!
Looks like we are having a June 1st baby... Maybe longer... maybe sooner. I got my results back from the testing and while they all showed normal I am still fighting a continuous headache and severe nausea which is all symptoms of developing pre eclampsia. The concern is that I will have a stroke or seizure and of course that is a major risk to Caroline. I am here to stay and have been given a 75% chance of delivery with in the next 24 hours and although I didn't ask I can almost bet based on all of the doctors visits including someone to explain risks from NICU, that it will be Friday. I am singing consent forms tonight as well. So there you have it in short. I have been given more information than my brain can handle and we are very overwhelmed. I wouldn't say stressed but it's scary to bring a baby into this world at 30 weeks.
I know many of you will like to be here/see her right away but to be honest I am more than likely going to have to have a c-section. With the c-section and the meds I will be on I won't even get to see Caroline for the first 24 hours after they whisk her away. During the first 72 hours visitation will be limited to Tom as I have to take care of me in order to take care of her. I will get to see her some but it will be depending on how I do. After they deliver her Tom will go with her to the NICU and my mom will come to be with me in recovery. As soon as we can we will get everyone pictures and of course let you all know when she's ready for visitors. Because it is the NICU where there is currently 44 babies extreme precautions have to be taken. Unfortunately Mikayla and Kirstin and any other child won't be allowed. :( We will take video and pictures.
We of course are going to have to put my shower on hold until further notice. Laura and Hailey will work on rescheduling. I don't need anything at the moment I believe that someone will be working on a care calendar that you can volunteer to help where help is needed. I appreciate in advance anything any of you help with. I am surrounded by amazing people.
On a happy note I got to visit with four pretty puppies from Therapy Pet Pals of Texas. The picture is of me looking like I've been in the hospital and Buddy. I also got to love on another basset hound named Betty and two Australian Shepard's named Rusty and Allie. It was by far the highlight of my day.
We will keep you all updated as we have time. I will do my best to update every day!
Love to you all,
Casey, Tom and our precious Caroline
Looks like we are having a June 1st baby... Maybe longer... maybe sooner. I got my results back from the testing and while they all showed normal I am still fighting a continuous headache and severe nausea which is all symptoms of developing pre eclampsia. The concern is that I will have a stroke or seizure and of course that is a major risk to Caroline. I am here to stay and have been given a 75% chance of delivery with in the next 24 hours and although I didn't ask I can almost bet based on all of the doctors visits including someone to explain risks from NICU, that it will be Friday. I am singing consent forms tonight as well. So there you have it in short. I have been given more information than my brain can handle and we are very overwhelmed. I wouldn't say stressed but it's scary to bring a baby into this world at 30 weeks.
I know many of you will like to be here/see her right away but to be honest I am more than likely going to have to have a c-section. With the c-section and the meds I will be on I won't even get to see Caroline for the first 24 hours after they whisk her away. During the first 72 hours visitation will be limited to Tom as I have to take care of me in order to take care of her. I will get to see her some but it will be depending on how I do. After they deliver her Tom will go with her to the NICU and my mom will come to be with me in recovery. As soon as we can we will get everyone pictures and of course let you all know when she's ready for visitors. Because it is the NICU where there is currently 44 babies extreme precautions have to be taken. Unfortunately Mikayla and Kirstin and any other child won't be allowed. :( We will take video and pictures.
We of course are going to have to put my shower on hold until further notice. Laura and Hailey will work on rescheduling. I don't need anything at the moment I believe that someone will be working on a care calendar that you can volunteer to help where help is needed. I appreciate in advance anything any of you help with. I am surrounded by amazing people.
On a happy note I got to visit with four pretty puppies from Therapy Pet Pals of Texas. The picture is of me looking like I've been in the hospital and Buddy. I also got to love on another basset hound named Betty and two Australian Shepard's named Rusty and Allie. It was by far the highlight of my day.
We will keep you all updated as we have time. I will do my best to update every day!
Love to you all,
Casey, Tom and our precious Caroline
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Eternus Fides... Keeping my Faith.
Today's weekly appointment proved to be exactly what I thought it would be. Although I have had what I will describe as an uneventful week, yesterday I developed what I will say is as close to a migraine as I have ever had. I thought maybe because I had gotten out of the house and out in the pollen that maybe it was allergy related but after no help from any over the counter medicine I had to mention it to my high risk doctor. I had an appointment with her today so I wasn't in a "hurry" to have her admit me. Headaches can be a major symptom of Pre Eclampsia and when associated with any type of visual disturbances it's kind of a big deal. After a very restless night of hip and head pain I thought to myself about 5 am I am over being pregnant... I TAKE IT BACK NOW!
Dr. Destefano has ordered the steroid shots to help develop Caroline's lungs. I have had one of two in this first round. The shots are good for two weeks at at time and they will only give two rounds of two shots if needed but when asked we have a 50/50 chance of delivery with in the next two weeks. The shots are best if used within two days of getting them... so we may have a baby very very soon. Two of my best friends birthdays are this week one on the first and one on the fourth. I joke that I'm going to give them the best birthday present they could hope for.
As for me I am of course anxious or maybe scared... I don't really know how to describe my feelings. It's definitely overwhelming. My doctor hugged me which has one never happened and two seems to be out of genuine concern. We all have an eventful few days and I pray that the tests show to be much less of a big deal and that this is all precautionary as usual but only time will tell. I am doing a lot of testing for the next few days but I know I am in good hands. Tom is off work until Friday night so I have my rock beside me as usual. We are supposed to pick up the girls on Friday... Not sure how all of that will work out but it always seems to fall into place. I can't say we need anything at the moment. I unfortunately don't have a lot of answers...
PS My shower is scheduled for the 9th and is still on for now. No changes will be made to that until we know more. We may have the shower with me via web cam... Those details will also fall into place over the next few days.
Lots of prayers our way. I'm not normally one to ask but believe in his will to be done. If she's supposed to be here... she will be.
Love to you all,
Casey, Caroline and Tom
Today's weekly appointment proved to be exactly what I thought it would be. Although I have had what I will describe as an uneventful week, yesterday I developed what I will say is as close to a migraine as I have ever had. I thought maybe because I had gotten out of the house and out in the pollen that maybe it was allergy related but after no help from any over the counter medicine I had to mention it to my high risk doctor. I had an appointment with her today so I wasn't in a "hurry" to have her admit me. Headaches can be a major symptom of Pre Eclampsia and when associated with any type of visual disturbances it's kind of a big deal. After a very restless night of hip and head pain I thought to myself about 5 am I am over being pregnant... I TAKE IT BACK NOW!
Dr. Destefano has ordered the steroid shots to help develop Caroline's lungs. I have had one of two in this first round. The shots are good for two weeks at at time and they will only give two rounds of two shots if needed but when asked we have a 50/50 chance of delivery with in the next two weeks. The shots are best if used within two days of getting them... so we may have a baby very very soon. Two of my best friends birthdays are this week one on the first and one on the fourth. I joke that I'm going to give them the best birthday present they could hope for.
As for me I am of course anxious or maybe scared... I don't really know how to describe my feelings. It's definitely overwhelming. My doctor hugged me which has one never happened and two seems to be out of genuine concern. We all have an eventful few days and I pray that the tests show to be much less of a big deal and that this is all precautionary as usual but only time will tell. I am doing a lot of testing for the next few days but I know I am in good hands. Tom is off work until Friday night so I have my rock beside me as usual. We are supposed to pick up the girls on Friday... Not sure how all of that will work out but it always seems to fall into place. I can't say we need anything at the moment. I unfortunately don't have a lot of answers...
PS My shower is scheduled for the 9th and is still on for now. No changes will be made to that until we know more. We may have the shower with me via web cam... Those details will also fall into place over the next few days.
Lots of prayers our way. I'm not normally one to ask but believe in his will to be done. If she's supposed to be here... she will be.
Love to you all,
Casey, Caroline and Tom
Thursday, May 24, 2012
A few quotes:
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart... ~ Jeremiah 1:5
A baby is God's way of saying the world must go on. ~ Carl Sandburg
If you want children to keep their feet on the ground, put some responsibility on their shoulders.
~ Abigail Van Buren
...Children are a reward from HIM.
~ Psalm 127:3
Grandchildren are God's way of compensating us for growing old.
~ Mary H. Waldrip
I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.
~ Jeremiah 31:3
Children need love, especially when they do not deserve it.
~ Harold Hulbert
Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.
~ Elizabeth Stone
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart... ~ Jeremiah 1:5
A baby is God's way of saying the world must go on. ~ Carl Sandburg
If you want children to keep their feet on the ground, put some responsibility on their shoulders.
~ Abigail Van Buren
...Children are a reward from HIM.
~ Psalm 127:3
Grandchildren are God's way of compensating us for growing old.
~ Mary H. Waldrip
I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness.
~ Jeremiah 31:3
Children need love, especially when they do not deserve it.
~ Harold Hulbert
Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body.
~ Elizabeth Stone
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
~ Jeremiah 29:11
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Kick's A Lot...
I'm officially changing her name or at least making this her Indian name.
So here we go with more medical updates. Dr's appointment was really good today. I learned more about what is going on with Caroline's placenta. We actually had good numbers. The magic number is back down to a .... wait for it... 3!!!!!!!!!!! Although it can go up and down the fact that it had changed that drastically buys so much time for her to keep on cooking! The doctor said it's a direct result of me laying on my butt! Although I hate it I can now see that it's doing something!
My high risk doctor is kinda awesome. She is direct, kind and funny all into one plus one of the smartest women I have ever met. I trust her with mine and my babies life which says a lot. So a little more time and no appointments for a week! Caroline is lounging head up across my belly. Backwards baby, but who am I to talk I was breech up until a day before my delivery. Like mother like daughter. Her head is above the left of my belly button and her feet are pointing down towards my right hip. Her hands were tucked behind her head... give her a float and she literally might stay forever! She is 2.4 lbs which puts her in the 25th precentile. She's a little small but that's ok. Overall a great appointment which makes for a very happy day!
I'm officially changing her name or at least making this her Indian name.
So here we go with more medical updates. Dr's appointment was really good today. I learned more about what is going on with Caroline's placenta. We actually had good numbers. The magic number is back down to a .... wait for it... 3!!!!!!!!!!! Although it can go up and down the fact that it had changed that drastically buys so much time for her to keep on cooking! The doctor said it's a direct result of me laying on my butt! Although I hate it I can now see that it's doing something!
My high risk doctor is kinda awesome. She is direct, kind and funny all into one plus one of the smartest women I have ever met. I trust her with mine and my babies life which says a lot. So a little more time and no appointments for a week! Caroline is lounging head up across my belly. Backwards baby, but who am I to talk I was breech up until a day before my delivery. Like mother like daughter. Her head is above the left of my belly button and her feet are pointing down towards my right hip. Her hands were tucked behind her head... give her a float and she literally might stay forever! She is 2.4 lbs which puts her in the 25th precentile. She's a little small but that's ok. Overall a great appointment which makes for a very happy day!
The Good, The Bad and The Ugly
Please do the whistle it makes the title more effective!! Ok so by popular demand here is a quick run down as of now to the complications I've had... (Grab a snack, You'll need it)
Some of this might fall under the TMI category but I am pregnant and well pregnancy can be kinda icky... so there's your warning!
December 24th: 8 weeks and the night I told my 85 (now 86) year old Granny that she was going to be a Great Granny... Light spotting but scary enough I went to the ER. They called it an attempted miscarriage and told me it was normal in early pregnancy. This happened 3 more times but I didn't go to the ER because it was "normal".
February 6th: 15 weeks and past the "danger" zone. I woke up thinking I had pee'd myself went to the bathroom like normal and realized that it was in fact blood. A lot of blood. I was alone and terrified but Tom came home and took me immediately to the ER where they couldn't see what the exact cause was but somewhere behind our baby was a placental tear or a subchorionic hemorrhage. More than likely with the previous spotting it was in fact a subchorionic hemorrhage.
April starts the blood pressure issues. I had been borderline high blood pressure throughout but in April there was a major increase. I was placed on procardia 30mg and lasted 3 weeks on that before things got very rocky.
April 26th: Blood pressure 171/109, chest pain, and yucky feeling. I called my Dr. and basically asked to be seen. I didn't know my BP was that high but when I got there it was straight to the ER (across the street at North Austin Medical) for me. I spent all day in the ER and had every test you can imagine done and excitedly two IV's. I was admitted and changed to Labetalol 100 mg twice a day. It worked a little too well so my BP was then dropping too much. I ended up leaving on 50 mg twice a day three days later. Home but on moderate bed rest.
May 11th: Had an awesome dinner at Cracker Barrel with Tom's family but felt like I had been hit by a truck after. Dizzy, fast heart beat I was sure my BP was high yet again. I spent until Sunday in Round Rock St. Davids. Basically at this point they have found protein in my urine but it's still not quite enough to diagnose me with pre-eclampsia but I did get the great news that I barely failed my gestational diabetes test so I now had to add Gestational Diabetes to my long list of issues.
May 14th: I met with the nutritionist for my GD. She changed my diet a lot but I do it for the baby.
May 15th: Follow up with my OB. First time my little brat decided to let them use the Doppler to make sure she was ok in there...
May 16th: Follow up with my High Risk DR... No she's not quite ok.
I will do my best to describe the issue but I'm not Dr. and to be honest I don't understand exactly how all of this works yet (I have another apt today so I hope to get more answers)
Caroline's placenta is not working correctly. The flow going in is too high. I understand that it should be under a 3 (whatever unit it's measured in) and on the 16th it was a 4. My high risk Dr. was concerned and told me with everything going in the direction it was going that I would end up having this baby much sooner than the goal of July 19th (37 weeks). She now wanted to see me weekly and that I should expect hospital bed rest soon but that I could go home and as long as I didn't do anything streneous I could stay there for a while still. No laundry, no dishes basically sit on my butt... That's very hard when you have a type A personality. I want to be in charge of my household and clean etc. but it's for the baby so I do as I'm told.
May 18th: After a stressful day, around 4:30 PM I started having contractions... Not the braxton hicks kind the real ones that hurt from the back forward. I got home per Dr's orders and got in bed and drank a ton of water. Around 8:30 PM they had stopped but I hadn't felt Caroline much. Same for Saturday. I felt her some but just not the same.
May 20th: No baby movement... at all no response to orange juice, poking, changing positions, this baby was lethargic. I did a kick count and after an hour only had 3 kicks. I called my high risk Dr. who was on call and she said come in. After being monitored my brat decided to wake up some and show off for the nurse. The Dr. ordered an ultrasound which came back showing the placental flow to be even higher... it was now a 6.1 (whatever it's measured in). So in just 4 days it had increased.
There you have it. My long story of medical drama up until this point. I have no idea what's in store for us but the OB in the hospital told me along with my high risk Dr. It's only a matter of time before they will pull this baby. The placenta will eventually have so much pressure that it will not provide for Caroline and we are walking a fine line until then. I will have steroid shots as soon as they feel like she is getting close. Ideally we will get all the way to 37 weeks but 32 would be good at this point too.
I am 29 weeks on Thursday, May 24th.
Please do the whistle it makes the title more effective!! Ok so by popular demand here is a quick run down as of now to the complications I've had... (Grab a snack, You'll need it)
Some of this might fall under the TMI category but I am pregnant and well pregnancy can be kinda icky... so there's your warning!
December 24th: 8 weeks and the night I told my 85 (now 86) year old Granny that she was going to be a Great Granny... Light spotting but scary enough I went to the ER. They called it an attempted miscarriage and told me it was normal in early pregnancy. This happened 3 more times but I didn't go to the ER because it was "normal".
February 6th: 15 weeks and past the "danger" zone. I woke up thinking I had pee'd myself went to the bathroom like normal and realized that it was in fact blood. A lot of blood. I was alone and terrified but Tom came home and took me immediately to the ER where they couldn't see what the exact cause was but somewhere behind our baby was a placental tear or a subchorionic hemorrhage. More than likely with the previous spotting it was in fact a subchorionic hemorrhage.
April starts the blood pressure issues. I had been borderline high blood pressure throughout but in April there was a major increase. I was placed on procardia 30mg and lasted 3 weeks on that before things got very rocky.
April 26th: Blood pressure 171/109, chest pain, and yucky feeling. I called my Dr. and basically asked to be seen. I didn't know my BP was that high but when I got there it was straight to the ER (across the street at North Austin Medical) for me. I spent all day in the ER and had every test you can imagine done and excitedly two IV's. I was admitted and changed to Labetalol 100 mg twice a day. It worked a little too well so my BP was then dropping too much. I ended up leaving on 50 mg twice a day three days later. Home but on moderate bed rest.
May 11th: Had an awesome dinner at Cracker Barrel with Tom's family but felt like I had been hit by a truck after. Dizzy, fast heart beat I was sure my BP was high yet again. I spent until Sunday in Round Rock St. Davids. Basically at this point they have found protein in my urine but it's still not quite enough to diagnose me with pre-eclampsia but I did get the great news that I barely failed my gestational diabetes test so I now had to add Gestational Diabetes to my long list of issues.
May 14th: I met with the nutritionist for my GD. She changed my diet a lot but I do it for the baby.
May 15th: Follow up with my OB. First time my little brat decided to let them use the Doppler to make sure she was ok in there...
May 16th: Follow up with my High Risk DR... No she's not quite ok.
I will do my best to describe the issue but I'm not Dr. and to be honest I don't understand exactly how all of this works yet (I have another apt today so I hope to get more answers)
Caroline's placenta is not working correctly. The flow going in is too high. I understand that it should be under a 3 (whatever unit it's measured in) and on the 16th it was a 4. My high risk Dr. was concerned and told me with everything going in the direction it was going that I would end up having this baby much sooner than the goal of July 19th (37 weeks). She now wanted to see me weekly and that I should expect hospital bed rest soon but that I could go home and as long as I didn't do anything streneous I could stay there for a while still. No laundry, no dishes basically sit on my butt... That's very hard when you have a type A personality. I want to be in charge of my household and clean etc. but it's for the baby so I do as I'm told.
May 18th: After a stressful day, around 4:30 PM I started having contractions... Not the braxton hicks kind the real ones that hurt from the back forward. I got home per Dr's orders and got in bed and drank a ton of water. Around 8:30 PM they had stopped but I hadn't felt Caroline much. Same for Saturday. I felt her some but just not the same.
May 20th: No baby movement... at all no response to orange juice, poking, changing positions, this baby was lethargic. I did a kick count and after an hour only had 3 kicks. I called my high risk Dr. who was on call and she said come in. After being monitored my brat decided to wake up some and show off for the nurse. The Dr. ordered an ultrasound which came back showing the placental flow to be even higher... it was now a 6.1 (whatever it's measured in). So in just 4 days it had increased.
There you have it. My long story of medical drama up until this point. I have no idea what's in store for us but the OB in the hospital told me along with my high risk Dr. It's only a matter of time before they will pull this baby. The placenta will eventually have so much pressure that it will not provide for Caroline and we are walking a fine line until then. I will have steroid shots as soon as they feel like she is getting close. Ideally we will get all the way to 37 weeks but 32 would be good at this point too.
I am 29 weeks on Thursday, May 24th.
My two cents....
Well, just to throw in my 2 cents worth on all this. From the beginning of this relationship, it has been a whirlwind of emotion. This particular event not being excluded! I had just moved down here from Oklahoma, flat broke, financially, and emotionally. I had met Casey just in July, in what I could only describe as a wonderful, storybook style romance that was blossoming into something that I really couldn't put my head around, but I was loving every second of it. You can ask her, we were NEVER apart! She went from someone I really liked, to someone I could not live without, practically over night. I looked forward to every afternoon, for my next fix of Casey. She was, and is, this light show of fun and emotion that kept me alive and positive. Her fun and positive demeanor was a refreshing shock to my system that was greatly needed.
Only a few months later, it was November. Now, I wont go into great detail about what happened, she's already covered all that. But it was definitely a defining event for us. It was a crossroads for the both of us. We had to make a decision, for both of us, and now for this unborn miracle that had just happened, seemingly, out of nowhere. My first emotion was shock, then happiness, then worry, then pure joy. I was very happy to give this gift to Casey. Something that the doctors said could never happen. Now, I'm not bragging, I only played a small part in all this. Someone, somewhere, chose to give this gift to the both of us. To test us, to test our relationship, to test our love, and our faith. So far... its working.
I have to agree, it has been a very rough road. But what I believe to be our strength together, is we both keep pushing forward. Despite any difficulties, we constantly move forward. Loving, laughing, crying, and supporting each other; and in the end, we both will have this little miracle that we decided to call; Caroline Leigh Anderson.
So little girl, when you get here, you can cry, laugh, smile, whatever you want to do, because you have two parents who will ALWAYS support you and raise you to be a beautiful little girl. Keep doing what you're doing, and we both can't wait for you to be here. Someone once said, all good things take time to come around. All we have is time....
That's my two cents worth.
Tom
Only a few months later, it was November. Now, I wont go into great detail about what happened, she's already covered all that. But it was definitely a defining event for us. It was a crossroads for the both of us. We had to make a decision, for both of us, and now for this unborn miracle that had just happened, seemingly, out of nowhere. My first emotion was shock, then happiness, then worry, then pure joy. I was very happy to give this gift to Casey. Something that the doctors said could never happen. Now, I'm not bragging, I only played a small part in all this. Someone, somewhere, chose to give this gift to the both of us. To test us, to test our relationship, to test our love, and our faith. So far... its working.
I have to agree, it has been a very rough road. But what I believe to be our strength together, is we both keep pushing forward. Despite any difficulties, we constantly move forward. Loving, laughing, crying, and supporting each other; and in the end, we both will have this little miracle that we decided to call; Caroline Leigh Anderson.
So little girl, when you get here, you can cry, laugh, smile, whatever you want to do, because you have two parents who will ALWAYS support you and raise you to be a beautiful little girl. Keep doing what you're doing, and we both can't wait for you to be here. Someone once said, all good things take time to come around. All we have is time....
That's my two cents worth.
Tom
Monday, May 21, 2012
Positive... I'm Having a baby???
December 5th: Tom and I received what I can say is the shock of a lifetime. I was late and tuna became my enemy... I got my first positive pregnancy test on a $1 test from the Dollar Tree. (Yes, I'm that cheap because I never thought it could happen) I took the test and it had a faint line so not knowing what to do I called my mom and said ummm I think I'm pregnant...? I asked if I could bring the test by so she could look at it, she said it wouldn't do much good because when she tested it was always with the doctor. So when in doubt you can always call your best friend. I took my test in a plastic bag to Laura at Chili's. She promptly told me that I was cheap (already established) and to go buy a real test. So off we went to Walmart to buy the clear blue digital... Pregnant or Not Pregnant... Even I couldn't screw that up. We got home I did the test and was thinking wow how cool is that it shows an hour glass as I was walking in to our bedroom. As I started to tell Tom look at the thingy... the uhhh hour glass. PREGNANT appeared on the screen. Tom says I turned white as a ghost and just kind of handed the test to him. I said I need to sit down... In all of my years I had never had a test turn positive. I had suffered two miscarriages but I never knew I was actually pregnant. Shocked, excited, jubilant, scared but overall happy. I was going to be a mommy. Little did I know what that would mean.
I will go into details of her story and keep all of you updated as to how things are progressing. I know many people have been through so much worse and those stories inspire me to hold on to my faith. On my right wrist I have a tattoo saying 'Eternus Fides' it means eternal faith.
This is our story I hope it touches your heart like it has so many already.
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